WHAT A FUCKING LIFE.

Betcha Gon' Know


    Whoa, welcome to a day of my life, day of my life
    Memoirs of an imperfect angel...
    Whoa, welcome, welcome, welcome to a day of my life
    Memoirs of an imperfect angel...

    Thought the lights were low
    I could see you both in a lover's silhouette
    And my heart stood still, I just froze right there
    Staring down at her red dress
    So I bolted out the door, jumped right into the car
    It's too dangerous to be in the vicinity of where you are
    Rolled down all the windows just so I could breathe
    Can't believe you just actually did this shit to me
    I'm goin' about a hundred, mascara runnin'
    Laughing out of anger, but it don't strike me as funny
    Been too good to you I've been virtuous and true
    To have something like this happen in my own bedroom

    Betcha gon' know, know how it feels
    When I get you back
    Betcha gon' know, know how it feels
    And your heart's been cracked
    Betcha gon' know, know how it feels
    When we fade to black
    How it feels for real
    And you see your whole world collapse
    And I'm gon' la-la-la-la-la-laugh
    And I'm gon' la-la-la-la-la-laugh
    And I'm gon' laugh right in your face boy
    Betcha gon' know, know how it feels...

    So I pulled to the side of the road to fix my face
    But I can't cover with makeup what my tears want to erase
    I wake up in a haze, morning dew and sun rays
    As I drive I hide my eyes behind my black Cavalli shades
    A block from the house slowly creep in the driveway
    Tip-tow through the door, but you're there, wide awake
    You're like 'Where you been?'
    I'm like 'Sorry but I feel asleep on Jasmine's sofa.
    I could've sworn that Rae Rae called you and hold ya'
    You like 'You OK', I'm like 'MM I'm all right
    A little sleep and I'll be fine'
    But if you only knew what was the back of my mind
    Already stung but you really gon' fine out in time, Oh I

    Betcha gon' know, know how it feels
    When I get you back
    Betcha gon' know, know how it feels
    And your heart's been cracked
    Betcha gon' know, know how it feels
    When we fade to black
    How it feels for real
    And you see your whole world collapse

    This is for real, for real, for real
    Oprah Winfrey whole segment for real for real
    20/10 Barbara Walters for real for real
    60 minutes for real
    (Baby)
    I had all my trust in you and
    Look at waht you put me through
    (You got me all crazy)
    Somewhere down the line you gon' get what you deserve
    You fuckin' jerk
    (you were supposed to save me
    My sweet baby
    But now we're fading away)

    But you're gonna know how this feels
    Even if it's the last thing I ever do...
    To be continued...





my queen M,

dear queen M,

thank u r always with me when i feel so sad

背景不該是這樣
沒有結局的結局不該是這樣
微小話孔中的哭泣聲讓我心也碎了
怎會有如此讓人心痛的旋律

sorry babe, i did lie to u
但我不是真心想要這麼做
he'll never replace u, ever, even with a real heart
永遠不會
please don't cry like that again
那聲音會將我的心撕裂
i know it's too late to get u back
我會忍耐著到那一天的來臨
what a damn mess
嘴裡說著最後一次要履行的承諾
i'm so fool
我知道我不該
as u said
或許自由才最對
but everything reminds me everyday
就好像笑我逃不出你佈下的圍牆
i do
我是
babe
寶貝

i love you












而妳還在唱著la-la-la-la-la-laugh